Unseen, but unforgotten

I always find hard to speak about myself, as it seems that I simply cannot find appropriate words to discribe myself. I make sentences in my head and they disappear there even before I take a pen to write them down. If I make a note, then it means that it will remain forever. Maybe undiscovered, forgotten, lost or unseen, but that will also mean, that I will remain unforgotten in this time and space. These thoughts led me to the idea of making myself a diary. So this diary will be something I have, something timeless. Maybe after years, there will be someone to read it, but I do not have any sort of illusions about that, as I have never been a famous person, I have always been an outcast, even among my friends, as they could never understand me. "Oh that Oddy" - is something people could say about me. This reason made me create my own world, based on my dreams, my beliefs and fantasies. Living somewhere between my world and reality, I will be a messenger, who will leave a physical memo about an odd person and his entire world...